Long Road Ahead...

I feel uneasy the last few days...a feeling of being trapped in "the now" when all you want is for time to pass a bit. I equate it to your class trip in gradeschool...when the teacher told you that you were going to your favorite amusement park but you had to wait months in order to see that day arrive!!! I feel like a kid again...awaiting the next big thing. Wanting days to pass by just so I could approach the "big smile time" in life...and walk the road that will get me there quicker.

Why is it that we, as humans, do that? I don't want to be that way...don't get me wrong- anticipation is an adrenaline rush and it feels great, but at the same time we put our blinders on to what's going on in front of our eyes at this very moment. We end up missing the "now" and put all of our energy into the "what if's" of the future. I would just prefer a happy medium so I could appreciate now while still getting butterflies in my stomach about what will eventually come to be. Patience...that is definently a virtue and one I'm lacking a bit as I type this...